Why, WHY, WHY am I blogging at 11:30 at night, when I should be sawing logs in the comfort of my bed? Because I am a mom with a child who has a hurty toe. The hurty toe is sooooo hurty that my child cannot keep her leg still for more than ten seconds. The hurty toe is sooooo hurty that it is making her legs hurt. I know that the hurty toe is not a figment of this child's imagination because it is very swollen and red. But WHAT, pray tell, is wrong with the hurty toe?
I wish to the good Lord above I knew. I have been holding an ice pack on it, scratching it when it itches every other minute, and being kicked when the pain is too bad to keep still. I have been doing these things since 8 pm. Why didn't the toe hurt during day light hours? It has been red and swollen for two days now and it only hurts at night. Is this some kind of sick joke? Is this God's way of getting me back for some wrong doing? If so, let me know now so I can drive to the nearest confessional booth and repent. At this point there is no sign of the pain easing up and typing with one hand while scratching the hurty toe is neither easy nor fun.
So why the hell am I blogging while nursing the hurty toe? Because I am feeling very sympathetic, that's why. This post is for all you moms out there who sit up at night nursing feverish babies, nightmare plagued toddlers and hurty toed children. I sit on the couch, watching Daddy Day Care for the billionth time and praying that God takes her pain and gives it to me. It makes me think of the countless mothers who are forced to watch their children suffer from much more serious things than a simple hurty toe.
God bless all of you who watch your children suffer from cancer, leukemia and other horrible illnesses. For those of you who lose many nights of rest, because you are afraid to fall asleep and miss your child's last moments of life. For those who pray to God that he take away your baby's illness in exchange for your own health. For those who feel helpless to be able to help your child get some relief. I salute you. I pray for you. I am thinking of you tonight as I try and ease my own child's pain, to no avail. What a completely mind boggling feeling it is to sit and watch your child suffer. I pray that if my own kids ever experience a serious illness or disease, that God gives me the strength to stay calm, be positive and trust Him. It is only a toe and yet...I'm ready to go chop off my own and do a home toe transplant, just so that I get can get a few winks in before the sun rises.
5 guests at the inn:
I read you because....you're funny and probably because, I am mom to 6crazy kids and can relate to a lot of what you post. So I'm completely feeling your toe pain...then I reach the final paragraph....thank you.
We found out that our daughter (who has a complex heart defect)is going to have her open heart surgery....sooner than thought. I haven't cried...until now. Yesterday was her 2nd birthday and I just feel like everyday with her is a gift...thanks for acknowledging moms! O.k. not only are cute tears falling but my nose is joining....off for a tissue!
You are most welcome. What a huge, life changing season you are going through. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
Again Kadi you've done it...You've hit home! Some how I felt that a portion of your message was directed to me because of Hannah's questionable situation & it sent my heart racing. Her situation is all up in the air...but thank you. I know exactly what you mean...No one wants to see their child suffer, no matter how minor it may seem. Their pain is our pain. It's a helpless feeling. My prayers will be added with yours for Amber's daughter as well.
Thanks again.
Thank you both!!!!
Oh, I should thank God more often for my healthy children. I will pray to God that He shower Amber and her daughter with love and healing!
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